Weird stuff

Online dating is weird. I like meeting someone out of the blue and she just happens to like you too. That doesn't seem to happen anymore for a lot of people. It's odd. You have to go on there and talk to some stranger like you've met them but not in person. 

I like meeting people. I have since I was little. I was never really that small though. Always the tallest kid in my class. I failed kindergarten. I turned 7 the next year. The other kids couldn't believe I was 7 and in kindergarten. It was embarrassing. I was the tallest in our Christmas play. 

 I almost in the gifted and talented program. So I'm neither because I could passed some dumb test. But before I was taking the test there was this girl, Meredith, who was really smart, and she liked meeting people from that point on I did too and made my business to like meeting people cause I knew I would meet a lot of people in my life. 

But now it's not so easy to meet other adults especially women who even want to talk to you about anything under the sun. It's sad really. I like talking to girls they're much easier to talk to than guys. I've never had a tough time talking to girls, but in the online world they take more precaution, and they should more than ever now. You don't always know you're talking to online. People pray on the innocent. It's a fearful world we live in today. 

I know I'm a good person but they don't know me and most of time it seems like they want to know me or meet me in real life. I would like to meet almost anybody though. I'm a private people and I do want to be left alone sometimes, but really I get lonely like anybody else. And I'm vulnerable like anybody else in those times and sometimes I just want someone to talk to me. Even in crowded rooms surrounded by people I know I can feel alone. I know I'm not someone who will always start conversations with someone and I'm okay with this. I shouldn't have to always do that with someone. It's nice to have someone who wants to be around you and I don't feel like I know a lot of people are this way. I don't know people well. And they don't seem to want me to know them well either. I don't get it. I want to be someone they can confide in. Someone they trust. I'm honest to them they should be that way back. I don't know why this the way it is. 

http://www.mediafire.com/?ksb9nygzd8wfgt1

http://www.mediafire.com/?mfzhngpx4af3onk

http://www.mediafire.com/?dyopzjlf7o4ytq5

These are the last three podcasts in downloadable form.

new podcast

So I'm doing a podcast. A random music podcast I did this before a while back and I felt like doing it again and here it is. All these songs are from our itunes. http://www.mediafire.com/?q3n8j3apk1qoj21

I have decided to post more short stories.

Many Things

things hard things

The last couple of weeks have been really hard for both of us. I can't really say too much about this because it's just far too personal for the internet. But what I will say is thanks to all who have prayed for Heather's Dad. No matter what's going on with him I know that he is loved by all of you. This is anything but easy for us to deal with. So whatever you do don't stop praying for him he needs all the prayer he can get right now.
On another note I got a pt job at Sam's Club in their cafe area. It's not particular a good job, but it is a job nonetheless and that's what matter most to me about it. It's a little bit like Little Caesar's because pizza is served there, but other than that it's different. The thing I like most about it is making pizzas. I didn't make a lot of pizza's at Little Caesar's. But now I wish I did it would have made that job so much more enjoyable. The best thing about the job is that so far I haven't had to wash a lot of dishes so I am happy about that too. The major dislike about the job is that time just seems to go by so slow there that it almost makes me think that Sam's Club runs on it's own alternate diminsional clock. It goes by incredibly slow there. And it's the busy place I have ever worked at. I mean it's ridiculos how busy that place gets. But it is better than sitting around the apartment.
Please continue to pray for the McNeely family they need all the love they can get right now and thanks again for everybody's help that he has received. God is still working on Phillip McNeely.
I am so glad that so many people want to visit him. He is a man that is loved by many people.

Podcasting

When I was in high school I used to listen to this show on the Oregon University sation. It's was a Hardcore and Metal show. From then on I really wanted to have my radio show where I would play the music I liked. Now I can do that by making a podcast with garage band. This is my podcast. I thought about calling it eclectic electric. When I was in high school I was going to call my show extremities, which might be a better name. But it's doesn't apply to all the music anyway here it is for all of you to download and listen in your car or whatever.

Songlist

Band:Song

1. Advent-eulogy
2. At the drive in-initiation
3. The Dambuilders-Idaho
4. Today Forever-Dating Jill
5. For Today-With a passion Burning
6. The Appleseed Cast-A Dream For us
7. Armor For Sleep-Phantoms now
8. As I lay Dying-Elegy
9. Audio Karate-Jesus is Alive and Well Living in Mexico
10. The Dropkick Murphys-Famous For Nothing
11. A Plea for Purging-Golden Barriers
12. Haste the Day-68
13. Impending Doom-Peace Illusion
14. Maylene and the sons of Disaster-The End is Here
15. Maylene and the Sons of Disaster-Caution:Dangerous Curves Ahead
16. Azmaveth-Stigma From Hell
http://www.mediafire.com/?z4slr1jl3zcvekr <-------podcast download