Weird stuff

Online dating is weird. I like meeting someone out of the blue and she just happens to like you too. That doesn't seem to happen anymore for a lot of people. It's odd. You have to go on there and talk to some stranger like you've met them but not in person. 

I like meeting people. I have since I was little. I was never really that small though. Always the tallest kid in my class. I failed kindergarten. I turned 7 the next year. The other kids couldn't believe I was 7 and in kindergarten. It was embarrassing. I was the tallest in our Christmas play. 

 I almost in the gifted and talented program. So I'm neither because I could passed some dumb test. But before I was taking the test there was this girl, Meredith, who was really smart, and she liked meeting people from that point on I did too and made my business to like meeting people cause I knew I would meet a lot of people in my life. 

But now it's not so easy to meet other adults especially women who even want to talk to you about anything under the sun. It's sad really. I like talking to girls they're much easier to talk to than guys. I've never had a tough time talking to girls, but in the online world they take more precaution, and they should more than ever now. You don't always know you're talking to online. People pray on the innocent. It's a fearful world we live in today. 

I know I'm a good person but they don't know me and most of time it seems like they want to know me or meet me in real life. I would like to meet almost anybody though. I'm a private people and I do want to be left alone sometimes, but really I get lonely like anybody else. And I'm vulnerable like anybody else in those times and sometimes I just want someone to talk to me. Even in crowded rooms surrounded by people I know I can feel alone. I know I'm not someone who will always start conversations with someone and I'm okay with this. I shouldn't have to always do that with someone. It's nice to have someone who wants to be around you and I don't feel like I know a lot of people are this way. I don't know people well. And they don't seem to want me to know them well either. I don't get it. I want to be someone they can confide in. Someone they trust. I'm honest to them they should be that way back. I don't know why this the way it is.